So this is Burgy. He's the most suave and gentlemanly burger you'll ever meet, that's for sure.
He's come today to tell you all about me and drawing.
Well, not really. He's probably just going to sip tea and say things such as 'Quite' and 'Exquisite'.
But regardless, I'll go ahead and tell you.
So it's been quite some time since I've posted anything, and anything I do end up posting is really far apart.
I'm not consistent on following up with my projects or requests, and by pushing myself to do them, I end up cropping myself to a corner and losing all my motivation to draw or create whatsoever.
Because I'll be honest. I really want to do things such as this for a living. I want to make this my passion. But the fact is, I really don't like dedicating myself to drawing other peoples ideas and whims.
And I know it's been said and I understand it myself, that you shouldn't draw things for others, you should draw them for yourself. Do what you want to do, yadda yadda. Yeah, okay.
But when you look at how big the internet is, and how many people try to put their stuff out there and get recognized every day, you can really let it get into your head that you need to appease these masses by drawing what they want to see.
Of course, I've never actually been one for that. The only way I would atone to such a thing is the fact that my content is basically all my little pony related in some fashion.
But I guess you can say I feel a bit guilty. I hop around from one creative alias to another from here, to my Youtube, to streaming on Twitch, and balancing video games on top of that as well as work and misc. projects I want to undertake to expand my skill pool... holy moly.
But with all that, I tend to get some hype and a fanbase going, and then release no content on that community for months and months. And that doesn't feel good.
I live by the solid rule that if doing something will get me depressed or it'll affect me negatively, I'll stop doing it if I can help it. And I require change very frequently to satisfy myself in that regard.
What's the point I'm really trying to make here...
No one really cares if you're dead or not on the internet unless you've become close friends, so running around saying GUYS DON'T WORRY! I'M NOT DEAD!
doesn't really hold that much weight. What people actually care about is being delivered content consistently, no matter what it is. (Maintaining a certain standard of quality, of course.)
So what I will say is I care immensely about improving my drawing skills, and outputting some amazing content in the future that will make me amazed and proud. And hopefully, you guys will enjoy it too.
If you actually read through this whole journal, thanks. It's a bit of a wall of text for someone to randomly read.
What follows is a little collage of all the stuff I've been drawing in the past while that hasn't seen the light of the internet due to it being unfinished or unrelated.
See if you can figure out which one is the oldest and which one is the most recent!
Oh, and I threw the Panty Stocking Garterbelt animation screen in there because I actually do intend to finish that. No matter what. I must.
Have a good morning/day/afternoon/evening/sleep.